Monday, April 29, 2013

Adventures With Malaria


The pilot turns and shouts "are we all strapped in?" over the hum of the engines as they come to speed. The EMT confirms and monitors my vitals as we speed down the runway. We are in the air and ascending quickly when she tells me to get comfortable and I'm free to nap on the way to Lusaka. The cool air of elevation was the greatest relief I'd felt in days and was quickly catching up on three sleepless nights.

Four days prior I was in the village watching the local school soccer match as I would on any normal evening. However, this day, I was feeling a bit off.  It’d been an overly warm day and I’d been playing with the pupils all afternoon. Figuring it was just a dire need of water, I say my goodbyes to the fellow spectators and make my way up the path back to the comfort of my hut.  Though this day, cool water from my shaded filter was of no relief.  The sun was going down and the smell of cooking fires was on the rise. Deciding that shima with the usual beans and dried fish wasn’t what the body was craving, I told the family that I was feeling a bit under the weather. I stayed in and drank some warm tea and the cure all; chicken noodle soup.
When the sun came up the next day I was lying in a pool of sweat and sore with a tense back from shaking the night through. I wrote this off as my annual sickness, which some time or another has come since childhood; normally a fever or a nasty flu stateside.  Feeling better as the morning progressed, I was on with my daily chores: washing clothes, scrubbing dishes, sweeping the grounds and the dust that drifted in the house the previous day.  I had no pain and only mildly lacking any energy or strength. That afternoon it was showing itself again. I called my closest neighbor to share my troubles of the day and see what was happening in his village, 15 km away. Luckily for me, he showed more concern than I ever would have for myself and told me to get my ass inside and take a malaria test.  I brushed it off as a motherly statement and went beginning to prepare my fire.  As this simple task proved troublesome, his words came creeping back into my head and I was off to the med kit.
The kit is three easy steps of prick, dribble and wait.  Well, I was in such bad shape that three failed attempts to draw blood from my clammy, cold fingertip led to success. I was able to draw the three drops needed and add the provided liquid and the clock began.  I felt like a teenage girl waiting for that blue line to not show. But, low and behold, two little red ones came up when I hit with the headlamp. Positive.  Full on malaria. With the help, or more abrasive advice of my PC neighbor, I now knew what I was facing. Or so I thought.
The policy goes, for a positive test, call PCMO (Peace Corps Medical Office), start coartem and make your way to the house to rest and recover.  Simple as that.  Well, this, as they say, is Africa.
Medicine missing from the hut, sun down and I’m hit again with full on symptoms.  Luckily, my host dad comes to check on me and I’m able to have him go to the market and grab the drugs. Within ten minutes I’d be set and on the path. But, they were out of drugs and a two hour search ensues and he is successful.  I take the first four pills and set my alarm for eight hours, when I’m to wake and take the next dose. With three days of treatment I will be on the road to recovery.
A quick word about this Malaria and what lovely gifts it brings you. First, for me was a headache; simple fix drink some water and rest a bit. Not for this one. The gang also includes a fever that could cook a meal, sweat to drown you in, body aches that lay you out in bed, and once you’re in that nice prone position the shakes set it. These were not any little “brrrr it’s cold” shakes, but pay a quarter at a cheap hotel vibrating bed shakes. Double that with body aches and headache, and you’re in a pretty bad place.
Now, due to the remoteness of my village, reliable transport is found only Monday, Wednesday and Friday.  This was now Friday night, three more days of this pain until I was able to get on a truck to get to Mbala. The Peace Corps office in Kasama was informed of all of this as the events unfolded. They are the ones in charge of my well being and any mishaps that may unfold in during my service. As it was night when I was calling and getting this all settled out, it would be a suicide mission to drive to my place. The sun would be up upon arrival, so I told them to wait till morning. Come round 10 hours I see the glowing white streak that is the Land Cruiser to my rescue.  With assistance of my younger brother carrying my bag and one to lean on, I ease my way on the truck.
This truck in enclosed, has 4wd and, much to my surprise, air-conditioning. By this time I had had a temperature of over 103 degrees F for about 70 hours, and this was the best set up a guy in my condition could ask for.  Though I am only 65 km from town it will take an average of 3 hours to arrive.  This ain’t no leisure drive through the bush taking in the scenery, though it truly is amazing. This is a lock in the front tires, hit the low 4wd and hold on kind of ride. I have seen as many as 4 trucks axle deep in mud during the rainy season on this road. You couldn’t drive 40 meters without another hole in the dirt and sand road. Now, I get to do this with a headache that pains me to look to the side and the air-conditioning that is just beating out the blazing sun that is slowly creeping overhead.  Three hours of a gut busting flex staring at a spot on the dashboard to keep the tears of pain from streaking with one stop, we were at the pavement. We stopped to see my neighbor who had the right thinking enough to get me to check myself out. A short visit of me thanking and admitting he was right and we continued.
Finally, we made it to Kasama and the house where I’d have access to amenities that should ease my pain: running water, electricity, decent food and a comfortable bed.  The troubles of the ride behind me and I was feeling fairly decent, as one does in the daytime hours. Support from other volunteers and nap made things better. My fever was still above 103 but I was functional as a person, until nightfall.  The fever pushed up to 104.5 and a walk of 20 meters down the hall pushed me from normal to pale sweaty mess that collapsed on the concrete floor as last ditch effort to cool down.  I remained there, with the assistance of others bringing me water and light snacks, for the better part of the forenoon.
By the afternoon I was showing no signs of improvement and they made the call to take me to the Kasama Hospital.  They checked the vitals and did some blood work. They confirmed it, it was indeed malaria. The concerning part for them, was that I had finished my coartam and should have been showing signs of strong improvement. I wasn’t. In an hour they had pumped four liters of liquid through my IV and started me on a quinine drip. The fever had made me severely dehydrated and quinine, an ingredient found in tonic water, is the supposed fix all for malaria. Peace Corps Washington DC was fully involved with my handling now and strongly opposed the use of this, and for reasons unknown to me, I was stopped half way through the treatment.  If it wasn’t for the help of my PCVL (Peace Corps Volunteer Leader) at the hospital, the experience would have been much more troublesome. She stayed the night in the hospital and was up hunting the nurse with the dedication of a guide on a safari on a moment’s notice. I can’t thank her enough.
In the morning the call came in, from Lusaka that I was having a plane sent up to take me to the big town hospital. An 11 hour cruiser ride drains the liveliest of folks; I was not in that state. I was released from Kasama hospital and taken to the local airport to find my chariot alone on the runway awaiting.
By this time I was feeling a bit better and able to support myself walking, much to the surprise of the flight crew. So, I boarded the plane and was off. Awaking from a short 2 hour nap, I arrived in Lusaka to an ambulance to take me to the hospital where volunteers go for treatment. This would be my home for the next three nights.
The majority of my time there was simply for observation. My fever had cooled and the mains were mostly gone. One little flair of fever the second night extended my stay for a third. They were monitoring my liver functionality and blood platelet count.  Each of these were in the danger region and of concern to the staff. I had been on so many different meds of the course of the past week that one could hardly expect to be completely normal. With one last review of my charts and history with the fancy doctor I was released; thus, ending my week long saga of persisting malaria.
Coming into Peace Corps one hears these stories of the awful side effects of malaria prophylaxis. What terrible nightmares mefloquine produces and the horrifying long term effects, or how their Doxy makes them burn in the sun and it’s so hard to remember to take every day.  Well, what is lacking in these mystifying horrendous stories is the severity of malaria itself. It can and does kill.  It is painful and frightening to have anywhere, yet alone, alone in your hut miles away from a place where you can feel relaxed and in the company of others who will willingly help to ease your troubles.
It is a serious situation that should not only be a concern to volunteers who have this support system, but is a jeopardizing problem to the people in the rural areas who face this daily and seasonally, year in and year out. It’s said we don’t learn not to touch the stove until we’ve been burnt. Well, I’ve touched it, and sure enough, it’s not fun.
So here’s to all of us who think we can beat it, or it’s not that bad, or we can’t get it. We can get it. It is that bad. It don’t play no games.  Take your meds. Stay healthy.

For more information and stories:
stompoutmalaria.org
http://www.facebook.com/StompOutMalaria

Sunday, April 14, 2013

GoodBye My Friends

Here today, Gone tomorrow
Let our minds not fill with sorrow
For all of us will share this story,
the rights to which we're free to borrow

The chapters change with days gone by
Whether the girl next door to that certain guy
To times so sick you thought you'd die
Now here we are to say good bye

To each I extend unwavering gratitude
More to those who've seen my attitude
I apologize if ever I was overly rude
Hopefully, I made up for it with 4am food

In the house of NoPro, we've been together longest
Of friendships formed some rank the strongest
and memories made I find fondest

From my first visitor in Kaka land
to eager souls for a makeshift band
or proper techniques  to conserve the land

Or the mornings we come home in complete denial
The nights events we try to compile
Was that T.V. or did we dance with Exile?

Some may recall a particular Dance
Allusions were made of a growing Bromace
Now with your minds in my lyrical trance
I rise up to speak and make my stance
What happened that night was MAGIC, and you all are just jealous!

All Joking aside you all are amazing
You welcomed us in with minimal hazing
I could talk for an hour and not give enough praising

With you, down the road, off we will send
This chapter for you has come to an end
I said it before and I'll say it again
I'm happy to have you all as a friend

Tuesday, March 19, 2013



I Said.................I'd write you a letter  Nearly three months ago today
         .................I'd write you a letter  But I had nothing to say
         .................I'd write you a letter  My mind has gone astray

My Mind............ Has been on hold  Nestled away in the attic
              ............ Has been on hold  Dynamics gone sitting static
              ............ Has been on hold  Solemn, lonely away from havoc

I live  ................ In Nature   where day slips into day
        ................. In Nature   where I'm one with all easy to fade away
        ................. In Nature   subject to Mother she has final say
        ................. In Nature   majestic beauty everywhere eyes stray
        ................. In Nature  words do injustice unable to portray

But ....................Here's an attempt  to get these words to flow
      ................... Here's an attempt  to unfreeze lines buried  in the snow
      ................... Here's an attempt  to see what comes when I let go

It May ............. Not be a letter  but my mind is thrown a strew
          .............. Not be a letter  but all it says is true
          .............. Not be a letter  but still was written just for you

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Circles

All things will come full circle. Why do we think that is?
The journey's never always smooth, not mine, not yours, not his.
The life we live is full of turns and unexpected choices
So choose your best and don't get stressed by all those other voices.
I purpose we say instead my friend life has a certain angle.
While some obtuse and some acute, a round life 'twill surely mangle.
A circle as a shape is fine, as a journey harmful thinking.
The road we walk is difficult, full of bends and kinking.
Rather than anticipate the shape that we will wander,
why not walk first  then look back to ponder.
All things will come full circle, to me it sounds bizzare
I prefer to break from the mould and shoot off to a far.
If all things come full circle we end where we begin.
We meet back at the start to run the race again.
The track is old and worn you see so look beyond the curve
there's more out there than whats ahead to these new woods let's swerve.

Hut Writing



Two Lonely Words


How many men before me have come
across the same questionas I have just done.
A question of life, A question of death
this question could change how you take your next breath.
A question of hope a question of doubt
a question whose answer may not come about.
If planning the future or caught in the past
you'll remain in the shadow this question has cast.
Two lonely words, if stuck in the brain
are more than enough to drive eyou insane.
Two lonely words control all my thoughts.
Two lonely words have me tied up in knots.
Two lonely words can ruin your life.
Two lonely words can cut like a knife.
Which two words can scare a man stiff?
I'll ask you right now, dear reader, What if? 

Thursday, July 26, 2012

This one's for you

It's an odd feeling to leacve a friend,
Uncertain if you'll meet again.
Wonder if notes you'll send,
Or if this really is the end.
Their shoulder, to you, they'd gladly lend
Your toughest problems they'd easily mend
This was not a passing trend,
Eachother you'd both defend.
Adventures had need not pretend
My deepest thanks I do extend
Once together we did blend,
Now apart, I miss you friend.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Hello world!

I'm down in Lusaka now. Just had my fun little fall off the bike. I got to seee my first Zambian hospital and was pleasantly surprised.  I got right in and stiched up.  Now, I'm waiting for a  CT scan in the morning to make sure I'm not broken on the inside.  Just a few bumps and brusies on the outside.

Besides all that.... Life is great!  Work in the village is picking up, as I now have two groups of lessons in my village and am working on two more groups about 15km on either side of me. I'm glad to see all the interest in fish farming. So as long as they are willing to learn, I'm willing to teach.

Last week we had a "block party" all the farmers from my district met up and showed their vegetables they have grown for the season. Pretty fun thing. Kinda like the Puyallup fair or something.  I got to see all the groups from my village show off all there goods. A few womens groups, savings groups and some individual competitors from my Village. Fun stuff.  I like harvest time,  there are a lot of hard working and happy faces around.

It works out well for everybody, I get the mornings to read all the fun stuff taht I never had time for in school and in the afternoons, when all the villagers come back from the fields, I get to give lessons and go to the market and chat with my neighbors. I get to go to the school as well and help teach classes or just sit in and learn.  I think I'm about 30ish books down and for the last two months have been getting into Nietzsche a lot!

Sooo my writing, I suppose reflects it a bit.

Funny how whenever I'm around a computer that has decent internet I never have any of my notes or stories from the village with me. Next time I'll have to make a note to bring down some of my stuff with me.

Soooo for the time being here ya go:

14.5.2012

Everything's hopeless, the world's full of doubt
I stop now to think that's what life's all about
A series of stuggles, a painting of pain
We work our whole lives, what's really to gain?
We prepare in our youth, we look to tomorrow
But, this veil hides the truth a lifetime of sorrow.
We study, we learn, we work like a slave
Is it for a bright future or just a race to the grave?
We beat daily battles to bring one more day
but this outlook on life invites more dismay.
Forcasting hadtimes and problems ahead
our woes never leave us except when we're dead
Sitting, waiting for the next day to come
In hopes for a life where our stuggles are none
We surrender our youth to be more productive
and dream of a time when leisure's seductive.
But, what of right now, what of today?
I take a deep breath, let my pains fly away.
Won't dwell on tomorrow, won't waste my whole life
won't run with the crowd, the future's their strife.
I'll rise from among them, I'll stand up and say
You fight for tomorrow and I'll live for today.



I think I may take up writing as my next favorite thing of the day


16.5.2012\

Eyes
Judging Eyes
Whose Judging Eyes
Whose Judging Eyes passing by
on the ground or in the sky
pressure grows from Judging Eyes
Stress too much, causing lies
what's with all the Judging Eyes
Worthless feelings on the rise
caused by all the Judging Eyes
Seeing through my disguise
laughter cries from Judging Eyes
Nothing more but my demise
thanks to all the Judging Eyes
With one last look, to my surprise
all that's there are my own
restless, weary
Judging Eyes